In the Midst of Suffering

The Bible encourages us to always be thankful. That’s easy when God answers prayer and delivers us from problems. But it isn’t always easy when things go wrong. Last night it was a tough night for me. My emotion totally lost control and I left the house in the middle of the night. Besides crying in the car, I can’t do anything. I wish God totally took me away from this place rather than let me suffer in here. It hurts, and it bleeds.

However, after chatting with a friend over whatsapp, my emotion got settle a bit. Apparently in the midst of suffering I have two choices to make. First is to praise God in spite of what’s going on in my lives. Or another way to say that is, in the midst of my troubles and hardships, I can rejoice over the things that are not wrong in my lives.

The second choice is to ask, “God, what can I learn from this? What do You want to teach me through this so that I may be closer to You and rejoice more fully in Your goodness?” Honestly things happened yesterday are not what I intended to happen, nor I do wish it happens. I felt angry and frustrate on people who hurt me deeply. It is so hard to forgive and forget on these, especially I am living here.

Sometimes we can only grasp the important lessons in our lives when we go through difficult times. Thank God that these hard times will lead me to better things. Even though I was and I am still grumbling when things go wrong, I know one day Lord will grand me patient to love those that I don’t want to love,